Changing

Sometimes you can feel your life maybe going in a different direction, its like you can see it coming, but you dont know why its about to change, or how you can and/or will adjust to this change. As they say “things happen for a reason” and you have to deal with it, or however the rest of it goes. i know there is a change coming for me, its like when everything is going good something comes along and shakes that it up to make sure that you are still alive. Sometimes it can be a life changing event and you have to work to overcome it, but once you do, you realize it was for the better. There are times when you have been putting off something you wanted to do for a very long time and an even comes along to make you go and do what you have been postponing.
Say for instance you’ve had a dream to do something but you’ve been sidetracked by “life” and you’ve had to put that dream on the backburner to handle “life”, then all of a sudden “life” really happens and you have to reconstruct somethings and then your eyes are more open and you realize that maybe your dream is not too far away as you may have thought, or just maybe you were too busy with “life” that you thought that dream was impossible. Well “life” has a way of making you see what’s really possible, and it will move things out of the way so that you can do what you were really supposed to do.
I know there is something brewing in my life, and now that i’m sitting here typing this its even more obvious i cant remember the last time i actually sat down and typed a blog post, i’ve blogged in the past on several sites and it was an outlet for me, and i’m guessing my mind and my fingers missed because when i started this post i didnt know what to say and my fingers have just gone to work and taking on a mind of their own. Maybe i need to sit down and type so i can clear my mind, i dont know. i do know that in my gut and my heart i feel something changing and hopefully for the good, and just maybe i will begin to type and blog more like i used to.
Change is good, i’m not prepared, but i’m ready to accept any challenge that is coming my way, i’ve handled various changes thus far and its not need in backing down now or being afraid. Life is about chances and changes, So Let’s Go, I’m Here! If change is needed for me to open my eyes to something i’m not seeing then let it be, i know either way i’m gonna be okay.
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New Beginnings......Finally

Talking to one of my very best friends over the weekend, i mean she really is a good friend, she's like my little sister. I had been telling her for months and months to change her numbers and other contact info because she was constantly receiving drama from an ex and other people involved with him. Finally this weekend she got the message and she did it. I mean she went down the list changed everything, her cell, her home, her myspac,e her yahoo, her everything. So basically its a new beginning.

It got me to thinking about how people always give advice and never follow it. Like there are some things, that i tell people and i don't necessarily do it myself, i may procrastinate as well. Then yesterday i was reading someones blog who i really and truly admire and he was talking about "quitting on labor day" which was actually fitting because he was basically doing a "new beginning as well. My mind begin to wander back to some things that i started and didn't finish, for one there is a project i started the beginning of this year that i keep drifting away from, but now i think its time for me to sit down and really get it done. Also i remembered how much i used to blog, when i blogged on yahoo 360 and then all of a sudden there were all these bugs on 360 and i basically just stopped, and i created this page here (blogger and multliply) but i had done nothing with it. so labor day has come and gone and now its time for me to get back to basics again, and continue, plus finish some things and keep moving in good directions with A New Beginning and thought process of everything.

I think this may actually be the first actual in depth blog that I've posted on here in quite a while, but it will not be the last. I did get back into blogging where i have been doing video blogs, but even though the video is more personal, its nothing like sitting down and typing/writing your feelings out, especially if you like to do that.

I titled this blog "New Beginnings" because it is and it will hopefully continue the way i expect it to. I have many things that i need and want to accomplish and today makes the start of me going down the path of that journey that i have veered of one too many times.

Still Waiting

I forgot i had this page, until a friend of mine told me to look at her page, so i decided to update this. I titled it "Still Waiting" because there is something that i'm waiting for and it's just taking so long for it to come to me. I'm keeping positive, but you know when you trying to be positive sometimes it can be so hard, when what you are waiting for is not coming to you. So then you try to fall back on that saying God had something better in store for you. Well I really have been tryna figure out what it is that he has for me, I think i really need to find out or figure out what it is at this point in my life that i'm supposed to be doing. There is a certain something that keeps coming back to me and i think i'm gonna try to really pursue it, just gotta figure out how i'm gonna go about doing it.



I read a lot of other peoples blogs, and people are doing so many things, and there are things that i can do and i just need to get off my ass and do it.

Somtimes I Just Gotta Wonder

You know there are times in life, when you really have to wonder what the hell is going on around you, and where do you fit in with it all. You know you try to do things the way you supposed to, you have the faith, you think positive, and you leave it in the hands of the creator. Then you begin to see all sorts of things happening all around you to other people, with them barely even trying, and you are truly happy for them, you are. You still try to hold on to your faith though, because you just know its in the cards for you. So you wait and you wait and you wait and you manifest it, and you try to speak into existence, because it seems like its right in arms reach, but you just cant get to it.


Though all those others, they just put their arms and hands out and it just falls right in for them, and you're happy for them, not one bone of jealousy in you. Then you try to say well if its meant to be, it will happen, but you really feel that this is meant to me, you cant see how it can't be meant to be, but then slowly your faith begins to wain and you start to get weak, and start doubting yourself and imagine all kinds of things as to why its not happening and you try to stop these thoughts because you don't want that out in the universe. You only want that positive energy out there to come back to you, but what are you to do when it looks like every road that you try to go down is a dead end or a u-turn?


This is where i am right now, this minute, this moment, this second. I have faith i do, but its starting to break, and i had a talk with the "man" a lil while ago, i believe in him and i know he knows whats right, and i know he may not come when you call but he's always on time andi also know its not over til he says its over. So is all this a Test to see how strong i am or to make me stronger? If this is a test, then i've been tested for quite some time on this subject, i just thought this time the test would be over. I know that after this "test" i don't know in what shape i'll be in. I know that everything is already planned, i just wish someone at least give me a piece of the road map so i can get there.


I mean tell the truth, Don't You Just Wonder What The Hell is Really Going On and Where Exactly Do You Fit In? I need to know where i fit in and how do i get there, cuz i'm getting to the point where i am really tired. I feel like i've been wearing a mask for a some time now, and the mask is starting to crack beyond repair. I mean i'm not a complainer, i rarely complain about anything, but sometimes you just gotta vent.